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You sit in your garden but
Where am I?
You, there, surrounded and protected
By fauna and flora
As you swat at bees
And stomp on ants to cross the grass.
You laugh as you eat Light and
Make merry with companions.
I’m lost to that dream now.
It was not my choice
But an accident, unforeseen.
I was just as wanton and naive.
How little I knew of myself,
Or the sun, the rain, the stars,
Or of the end of time.
I was not ready to leave,
So here I am attached to cold stone
With you only in a haze, and
I cannot speak your name for
Lack of a translation.
Where am I but nowhere.
Who am I but no one.
Night is always; always is night.
I cling to the wall of night
With no release and no joy,
Not even you in your garden
Are ready to know me this way.
Not even lightning knows my name,
For it is a mere flicker to my rage.
I am blind in this abyss, stumbling
To find a guest in this forlorn place,
To find a slice of dawn in endless night, where
I am but a mortar to shadows
As you slumber in your garden.
Copyright © 2017 Barbara Harris Leonhard
poetry and image (my garden)
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I am a poet weaver. I love going within to excavate the bits of my soul that need reassembly into words.
I weave in other ways. I’m also a collagist, assembling snippets of images into a new whole with deep meaning. Each collage is a poem. This year, I've also started drawing neurographica, and since beginning this art therapy, I can't believe how many new connections I've been making and new opportunities. This art form has changed my life and, I believe, my poetry writing.
I can also call myself a memoirist. I have compiled a poetry collection called Three-Penny Memories: A Poetic Memoir, which is about me and my mother, who passed from complications related to Alzheimer’s in 2016. Our lives were woven together in amazing symmetry, like a collage, around our mother wounds, our near deaths, and losses that impacted our relationship. This year I found a publisher for my book - EIF (Experiments in Fiction), which is owned and operated by Ingrid Wilson. The book was the #1 Release in Family Poetry on Oct. 15, 2022, and it attained best-seller status in three poetry categories over the next few days.
In Nov. 2022, EIF nominated me for a Pushcart Prize for a poem in my book, “Mom and I Play Lassos with our Hysterectomy Scars”.
In 2021-22, I submitted poems from it with some success. One poem, “Cooking a Life with a Wire Spine”, was published as a featured work on Spillwords, and in August 2021, was nominated as Publication of the Month. Also, in September 2021, Free Verse Revolution: A literary magazine, published two other poems from my collection, “Hestia for Hire” and “Mermother: A Rogue Dream Poem”. Kristiana Reed, the editor of Free Verse Revolution: A literary magazine, kindly writes in an email, “The portrayal of a parent/child relationship in both pieces was incredibly raw and moving.” My poem "Marie Kondo Cleans My Purse at Starbuck's" was voted publication of Jan/Feb in 2022.
In June 2022, I was honored to have two poems from my collection published in what became an Amazon best-selling anthology Wounds I Healed: The Poetry of Strong Women (Gabriela Marie Milton. ed., also published by EIF - Experiments in Fiction).
It is humbling that my poetry is getting recognized in other ways. In the anthology Well-Versed 2021 (available on amazon.com), “Picasso Dreams Broken Glass” won Third-Place in Poetry and “From Your Son” received Honorary Mention.
This year I've also enjoyed interviews with Eri Nelson with SheShedStudios on VloggingPod (June 2); with Victoria Onofrei for "Victoria in Verse" on Bloomsbury Radio (August 14); with Thomas Whyte for Poetry Mini Interviews (a 5-part series in August and September); with Paul Brookes for Wombwell Rainbow (July 22); and others are forthcoming.
In November, Gabriela Marie Milton asked me if I would succeed her as Editor for Masticadores USA, and I really love it!
My husband Dierik is a musician of Bluegrass, Cajun, and Country music. He's also a wonderful music teacher. We've rescued and lost many cats over the years. Our last set of three cats is now down to one, Jasper, who was the youngest of the three. JoJo and Saga sadly succumbed to cancers since the pandemic started.
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Twitter: @Barbara.Leonhar4
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Why Extraordinary Sunshine Weaver?
Weaver is Source, who connects all things.
Strings and threads are cloth woven for wear.
Sunshine is Source, who reaches out rays
Like fingers to heat and heal,
To create Spring, spiritual connection,
To nurture Gaia,
To create rain as food,
To dream life,
To forge love
And evolve Source.
Extraordinary is this mystery.
All extends from Source as fingers of light
To nourish and thrive,
And as night falls awake so do all
Return to Source.
©2022 Barbara Leonhard
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Hauntingly beautiful 😊
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Thank you, Vindhya! I appreciate your kind words.
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Yeah beautiful!
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Jerry,
I like your poetry, but it is hard to comment. Also, your name is spelled so many ways that it can be confusing. Maybe I am confused. LOL!
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Yes, you certainly do! Don’t bother about d spelling of my name, as long as you can get the right sound! Thank you so much!!
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The most important thing is that you like it(my poetry).it gives me joy! Please try to enjoy it too! Thanks extraordinary sunshine weaver! Wow, just d act alone(weaving sunshine), is extraordinary!!!👍
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We all serve others with our poems. 😊
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