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Do Unto
We seem to be in a daze
In this Dance of Life.
Is this My life
Or is it Our life to grow as One?
What I do to You,
I do to All
And mainly to Myself.
My fear and anger,
My rage,
Reside in My body, not Yours.
I am killing Myself with disease
Because I despise You.
Because I abhor You,
I abhor Myself.
Because I loathe Myself,
I loathe You more!
I despise Your face and Your skin!
I deplore Your poverty!
Your children disgust me!
I resent the fact that You are not of My tribe!
Your needs are deplorable because
Mine are greater!
Your fear of loss is pathetic because
My fear of abandonment is much deeper,
Much deeper than Your sorrows.
You can’t have what is MINE!
You CAN’T have what is mine!
YOU can’t have what is MINE!
I despise YOU because
You feel entitled to what is
MINE!
And I’ll scream at YOU until MY pain is heard!
Until I’M seen and heard
Because I feel invisible and mute,
Helpless, disrespected, disowned.
It’s taught that
What I do to You,
I do to Myself,
The anger and fear bind My soul, not Yours,
And poison My blood, not Yours
My loathing is Self-loathing.
I Abhor My face, My skin, My poverty, My children!
My soul is deplorable!
So You must suffer
Because I am in such pain, and
My life is at stake!
My home,
My money,
My tribe!
It’s taught,
Unto you,
Unto me.
What I do to you, I do to myself.
How can We heal this cycle of fear?
How can We love?
If only I could love My own soul, then
I could love Yours more and
Heal this anger, this
Cancer, this
Malignancy, this
Contagion.
My anger and fear are toxins
Tearing apart My heart, not Your heart.
When can I finally see,
When can I finally feel,
Unto You,
Unto Me.
What I do to You,
I do to Myself.
Unto Me,
Unto You.
What I do to Myself,
I also do to You!
When can I know?
When!
Poster ©Barbara Harris Leonhard @ extraordinarysunshineweaver .blog
Digital Art “Dancing Daze” ©Martha Harris
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I am a poet weaver. I love going within to excavate the bits of my soul that need reassembly into words.
I weave in other ways. I’m also a collagist, assembling snippets of images into a new whole with deep meaning. Each collage is a poem. This year, I've also started drawing neurographica, and since beginning this art therapy, I can't believe how many new connections I've been making and new opportunities. This art form has changed my life and, I believe, my poetry writing.
I can also call myself a memoirist. I have compiled a poetry collection called Three-Penny Memories: A Poetic Memoir, which is about me and my mother, who passed from complications related to Alzheimer’s in 2016. Our lives were woven together in amazing symmetry, like a collage, around our mother wounds, our near deaths, and losses that impacted our relationship. This year I found a publisher for my book - EIF (Experiments in Fiction), which is owned and operated by Ingrid Wilson. The book was the #1 Release in Family Poetry on Oct. 15, 2022, and it attained best-seller status in three poetry categories over the next few days.
In Nov. 2022, EIF nominated me for a Pushcart Prize for a poem in my book, “Mom and I Play Lassos with our Hysterectomy Scars”.
In 2021-22, I submitted poems from it with some success. One poem, “Cooking a Life with a Wire Spine”, was published as a featured work on Spillwords, and in August 2021, was nominated as Publication of the Month. Also, in September 2021, Free Verse Revolution: A literary magazine, published two other poems from my collection, “Hestia for Hire” and “Mermother: A Rogue Dream Poem”. Kristiana Reed, the editor of Free Verse Revolution: A literary magazine, kindly writes in an email, “The portrayal of a parent/child relationship in both pieces was incredibly raw and moving.” My poem "Marie Kondo Cleans My Purse at Starbuck's" was voted publication of Jan/Feb in 2022.
In June 2022, I was honored to have two poems from my collection published in what became an Amazon best-selling anthology Wounds I Healed: The Poetry of Strong Women (Gabriela Marie Milton. ed., also published by EIF - Experiments in Fiction).
It is humbling that my poetry is getting recognized in other ways. In the anthology Well-Versed 2021 (available on amazon.com), “Picasso Dreams Broken Glass” won Third-Place in Poetry and “From Your Son” received Honorary Mention.
This year I've also enjoyed interviews with Eri Nelson with SheShedStudios on VloggingPod (June 2); with Victoria Onofrei for "Victoria in Verse" on Bloomsbury Radio (August 14); with Thomas Whyte for Poetry Mini Interviews (a 5-part series in August and September); with Paul Brookes for Wombwell Rainbow (July 22); and others are forthcoming.
In November, Gabriela Marie Milton asked me if I would succeed her as Editor for Masticadores USA, and I really love it!
My husband Dierik is a musician of Bluegrass, Cajun, and Country music. He's also a wonderful music teacher. We've rescued and lost many cats over the years. Our last set of three cats is now down to one, Jasper, who was the youngest of the three. JoJo and Saga sadly succumbed to cancers since the pandemic started.
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Why Extraordinary Sunshine Weaver?
Weaver is Source, who connects all things.
Strings and threads are cloth woven for wear.
Sunshine is Source, who reaches out rays
Like fingers to heat and heal,
To create Spring, spiritual connection,
To nurture Gaia,
To create rain as food,
To dream life,
To forge love
And evolve Source.
Extraordinary is this mystery.
All extends from Source as fingers of light
To nourish and thrive,
And as night falls awake so do all
Return to Source.
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June 28, 2018
Audio , Healing , Original Digital Art , Poem , Poetry , Quotes
Anger , Disease , Empathy , Fear , Golden Rule , Hate , Healing , Love , Rage , Self-loathing
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Powerful!
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Thanks! I want to record it. I hope it’s not too judgmental, but it’s true about how energy works. The hatred we spew becomes our biology.
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I can see where negative or positive can become part of us for sure. Peace and blessings to you.
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Yes, both. I agree. We have that choice. Blessings to you, too!
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Wise and wonderful shared. I agree.
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I appreciate your stopping by! I plan to record this one, if I can capture the raw emotion, I’ll post it.
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You should. Hopeful and good words.
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Reblogged this on johncoyote and commented:
Please read the amazing work of a talented writer.
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Thank you, my friend!!
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You are welcome. Needed and wonderful words.
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This is so powerful. You did such an amazing job. The emotion in this reaches me deeply.
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I thank you! I tried several recording go. It was so hard to vent that anger and send out those vibes, but I think we benefit from hearing and feeling these vibrations. Check out my other post on this poem. I wrote some commentary, and I would love your feedback.
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This is just absolutely amazing. Listening to the audio and reading these words has changed my day. Soulful and beautiful. I love it.
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Thank you. I am humbled by your remarks.
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